Monday, May 29, 2006

Back from Tassie - safe and sound!

Smelling daisies with my babyWell actually, I've been home for a week - but being the good girl that I am, I've been following the doctors orders of taking less on and smelling the daisies more (well....I haven't really done a lot of daisy smelling yet - but I've just about got everything up to date so I'm starting today *sniffffffff!!*)

World shattering secret No.5
It's not a case of there not being enough hours in the day or not being organised enough to get everything done - it's that we try to fit in too many things to be done in the hours that we have each day. Colour me enlightened! Until my doc pointed that out to me the other day, I had never thought of looking at it quite that way.

I went to the doc to get a prescription filled and walked out with a free ticket to 6 months of intensive daisy smelling. I still have no idea how that happened! I hate how doctors trick you into telling them stuff!!!!

One minute we were talking medication blah-blah-blah and the next she's asking me all sorts of (innocent seeming) questions about my studies, my work, the Daddio, my children and how much "quiet" time I actually spend in a day. That led to me telling her about my forgetfullness, lack of concentration, blurry vision and feeling like it would be nice to have a little holiday from my life - for just a little while. None of which sounded all that much out of the ordinary - hence me blabbering on so freely with her about it. You know, life gets busy and a little overwhelming at times - it eventually settles down, you remember to "breath" and all is well again - that's just the ebb and flow of life right?

Apparantly not. It seems that the day to day stress levels that I'm so used to living with, which don't seem all that stressful to me, actually put my body into distress these days. Whooda thought having a crapped out pancreas could have so much direct influence over all that. Not me - I still don't really understand it.

I don't understand that if I'm eating healthy, exercising and taking my insulin like I'm supposed to - why can't life be like it was before. I thrive on having more than enough things to do to keep me busy - it's what pushes me and keeps me sane. I operate better under pressure, well....I used to. I don't know how not to be like that.

I'm more relaxed, settled and happy than I can ever remember being - surely that should be enough.

But it's not, I'm now being told that I need to completely click off from a lifetime of habit and way of living and switch over to a more evenly balanced, less busy way of life. Which is great in theory and something that would benefit everyone of us, but how do you "just" do that???

For the next 6 months, so that my body has every chance of regaining some kind of stability, I'm not to work or study. My dream of becoming financially independent just got pushed that little bit further out of my reach.....bah-humbug!

Once I get my head around having to put my studies on hold and not being able to work with my "treasures", I'm sure I'll be much more accepting of my forced "holiday". For now though, I'm still just a teeny-weeny bit frustrated at having to put my plans on hold (again!) because of this stooooopid- stoooooopid disease that I have no control over.

Anyhow, none of that has anything to do with my trip to Tassie, which is what I had planned to write about when I logged in. Buggar!

3 Comments:

Blogger Candy Froggie said...

I'm sure you just need to train a lil bit with your "forced holiday" and suddenly it will feel very normal and even necessary!

(I personnally don't even try it, I fear I'd get addicted to it ;-)

I can imagine how frustrating it must be to have no control over your body, despite all the efforts you akready do!!!
But my lil finger tells me your doc is very right with all her advice... and this regular "forced holiday" might make a BIG difference!!!!

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Monday, May 29, 2006 11:07:00 PM  
Blogger Jack said...

I agree with Candles, re-focus, re-focus ...

Tuesday, May 30, 2006 6:10:00 AM  
Blogger Miz P said...

*refocusing as I sit here and type*

I'm keeping a notebook with me and everytime I have one of those "I just gotta do/finish/fix/pick-up/organise this before I relaaaaaax" thoughts....I write it down. I gotta say....it's been a bit of an eye opener - almost filled one page and I only started this arvo!!

Tuesday, May 30, 2006 9:25:00 PM  

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